Grieving is what my heart feels as if it is doing
The thump pounds and it hurts
It hurts to breathe
Is what is happening
Have you ever grieved before? Cause I have.
Not in the traditional I just lost a loved one, organizing the funeral sort of sense.
All my relatives who have passed away I was too young to grasp or didn’t know them well enough.
But I’m speaking about the other sense of grieving.
The loss with which comes pain.
The uncontrollable sobbing, the heart break, the difficulty breathing.
Your heart feels as if it has shrunk and exploded at the same time.
As though it will be unable to ever be repaired.
The pieces will never be replaced.
I have never grieved in this way before.
However today, I am.
Maybe those pieces that I left were never meant to be part of me anyways.
There was a great plan I cannot comprehend all along that planned to take my soul bit by bit.
And bit by bit my soul has been scattered and shattered.